Later that evening i got to magical thinking12/12/2023 ![]() I suffered from derealization since I was a toddler and I had anxiety issues since I was little. I have paranoia, delusions that stem from magical thinking, paranoia, or derealization. A better way of stating it is that it feels real, but I know it's not. My subconscious believes in magical thinking, but my logical self doesn't. But it doesnt mean one stop trying to be there. To feel like there is something I connect too, no matter how little. I still wanna find a place in this world. You would think someone who is broken so much, would stop trying and give up other humans and connections, but. Many dreams and signs make me out to be someone willing to die for others, but I end up being hated despite only wanting others to be happy. Do humans only know hate? Thats what I started to wonder at times. Its particularly bad when you have dealt with narcisists, abuse and gaslighting too. You stop wanting to relate to people at all, as they dont act anything like you, and your like "these wrongs are me, or is it that I am just so different I cant be human?". Had a mental break down, and its been a toxic fume as I talk to people. Maybe religion isn’t that different?ĭue to ptsd and fear for humans, its gotten super bad in my late years. And I have periods where I believe in other things, though I try to wield a skeptic’s edge w/o becoming a gadfly about it, most likely all just anomalous experiences that occur in heightened states of fear & paranoia. I don’t necessarily believe in aliens, but I believe he saw…something. My dad was a beanpole redneck who loved Star Trek and saw a UAP in the night skies over Wyoming in 1974. Again, age & history play roles here, but my folks were very generous, caring people with their own quirks. I just can’t not believe in a creator force, but as young teenager also became aware that atheists weren’t exactly wrong and their values made others side against them on any matter, but particularly religion.īesides learning my mother grew up hearing “children should be seen & not heard” but politics & religion just weren’t things to be brought up in conversation in public. I was never really religious, but still had my self-informed opinions on how it all worked. Now I am extremely averse to anything that remotely smells of spirituality. If you have any questions, please message u/Go_On_Swan or /u/Hinsoog. Provide context or further information to expand upon the title. Text posts must contain text in the body of the post. Non-research polls must be directly related to StPD.Įnforcement of the rules is up to the moderators. In order to keep discussion relevant, please do not make posts asking users to participate in a research study. If you think you have StPD talk to a licensed mental health clinician. We cannot diagnosis and it would be irresponsible for us to try. We cannot diagnose nor offer you medical advice as we are not medical professionals. If you feel that you need psychiatric help, get it in real life. of anyone else is prohibited.ĭon't request professional psychiatric help. Posting the phone number, address, location, name, etc. You will not, however, be banned for any other subreddits you may visit. will not be tolerated and will result in a temporary ban. Friendly discussion and debate is highly encouraged, but please refrain from personal attacks. There are a few rules that need to be followed: Schizotypal Abyss is the one people talk about the most frequently.) (All of these are unaffiliated with the subreddit and some content may be triggering. Please consult user brackk's factsheet about schizotypal disorder
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